sábado, 20 de febrero de 2010

2007 Finally at peace

It’s night and thoughts are wondering around... so here I am typing, don´t knowing how this will end.

2007 was THE YEAR, the year when my world was shocked, slapped it, turned around, shacked it, everything was upside down, and I can’t blame anyone else but me. That was the year I hurt a lot of people, more important my close family. I never imagined I could make my parents suffer that much, of course never intended to do it, but that doesn’t matter in the end I did.

I considered myself as a caring person, who likes to be in harmony with the people around me, but always in a way unhappy about who I was physically, mentally , spiritually , well just wasn’t happy, and because of that I got myself in a situation totally wrong but at the time gave me some temporary happiness and I don’t think it was happiness, it was momentaneous joy, and because I’d never felt it before, I didn’t see the awful consequences coming; meaning the suffer of the people I love, and depression , stress and anxiety attacks for myself.

Almost 3 years after, you might be thinking why Is she remembering that ???, well I thought about it ‘cause I see how my life has changed since that year, I’m healthy, I’m in peace with my family and most important with myself, I enjoy my work (sometimes I complain about it but yes I love having a job) , I have great friends, I’m starting to love myself and I’m writing and remembering about that time without tears in my face. Now I can be grateful of 2007; ‘cause when easily I can say it was the worst year of my life, it was also the best .

All in all 2007 :

  • Helped me change all my dark, negative things I was carrying since a long time.
  • Made me realize the value of my family and my best friend who always was there for me, and now I miss her so much (she’s living in another city).
  • It gave me the courage to travel, and study abroad
  • Made me taste the sour to distinguish the sweet time I’m living.
  • Is the reason I’m here sharing my feelings with all of you (lovely souls).

Dark times can bring the worst and best of us, in 2007 I was the worst no doubt about it, but I do believe after 2007 I’m following the right pad to be a better person, at least a happier one!.

As always I love you all and it is a great thing to share my deepest thoughts with you. I only wish you peace of soul and mind. And of course porn and o’s xoxoxox