sábado, 16 de enero de 2010

Lovely nights

It's been a while since my last post, but I think I've said it before; I only write when I'm in a specific mood when my brains wants to spit some thoughts into words!!

I don't think my posts will have an specific subject or theme, I will write what I feel at the moment.
I've always loved night time, it can be weird but is the time I feel more alive, my mind more cleared; who knows maybe in a past life I was a night creature, the point is that even I like a sunny warm day to go out for a walk and have a chat with a close friend, nights are for me and for me alone. Is the time when I can be with myself and let my mind go: sometimes to create, analize(to often I would say), dream or just to meditate about how my life is going.

I cannot understand people who can't be alone, years ago so called friends annoyed me with the classic frase "don't leave me alone", and because my insecurities about if I say no to them... I will myself be ended alone. What a contradiction... but yes be insecure make you do things you don't want. Of course when I needed som aid from those persons I only got NO for an answer.

We live in a world where the majority likes the crowd, the noise, the more "friends" you´ve got the more "popular" you are. And being the opposite had made my life so difficult, until through different circumstancse I learned and still learning to accept who am I and what do I stand for. I like the quiet, I like to be surrounded by nature and maybe I have a few friends, but are exactly that: truly friends. And maybe because I started to accept everything that conforms myself is why I enjoy so much my lovely nights!.

And don't get me wrong; I like to go to parties, reunions, I love concerts, cinema and more social situations, but because I want to, not because some people say I have to.

Readers, it is a lovely night tonight!! I only wish you peace and joy of soul, and as always "bear with me" meaning forgive my english writing errors!!
Love u all!